Exhausted, that is the word I am using this very late evening to describe myself. My life right now is full to the brim, things are so tight that I feel like I'm living in a sardine can. Today I had conversations with several important people in my life that led me to the above conclusion. I want to learn how to take care of myself once again. I don't want to complain, everyone has their burdens to carry however one must listen when one's body starts complaining. I am currently a student , a partime- store assistant, president to a campus fellowship, youth leader and a student representative. I am EXHAUSTED. At the beginning of the academic year I planned to quietly study whilst continuing to do the work I value most, the work of God. Due to unforeseen blows to my finances I found myself looking for a job however the shift pattern is not convenient in any shape or form. I am an ambitious person, I want to do everything in my power to achieve my main goal, which is to become an individual who is capable of making lasting change however such a busy lifestyle is starting to have a detrimental effect on my health.
My Turning point.
For the past 2 days though I slept enough I have woken up very tired, yesterday I left a lecture in such a daze and forced myself to work in the evening. My loved ones and acquaintances have advised to a blood test however I am very squeamish. Thank God I know a very patient nurse who understands my fears and puts me at ease, I must buy her some flowers next time I go to see her. I'm a fully grown adult and for someone who is also part of the health work force I know how annoying it is to have a person as squeamish as me walk through the doors, to top it off I have veins that dance about like Elvis Presley.
Identifying the My issues
1) My diet is a mess - I met up with one of my friends today who told me that I must stop eating the way I do and though it may be time consuming and slightly more expensive to eat healthy I must give it a good go. At the end of our conversation we came to an agreement, I will send her pictures of my meals and confess if I eat something she would not be proud of.
2) Something's gotta Give: I might have to take a break from being the youth leader, I am less effective in my current state but I still have to make peace with this idea. It is not sitting well with me at all ! I can't decide what to let go of.
I am starting a journey today, I have never consciously set out to take care of myself but as I age I don't want my bad habits to grow with me..