Friday 19 December 2014

Time is God's Currency

We are living in a society where everything is fast paced and digital. There are so many things you that could easily get caught up doing and before you know it  24hrs fly by. Being a busy person is not the issue here but if you are a person wanting to see the manifestation of God in your life then time management becomes an issue. I have problems with time management myself, therefore it is from experience that I write. I was once in a youth programme and the preacher said "a lot of youth have Zill but no subtance". From His whole sermon that's what stuck out for me. Having Zill but no Substance, it described me at the time well. I was very energetic to so the work of God and I was very passionate about him and his word but I lacked substance, all because I did not spend enough time with him.
A fire without continuous fuel will burn itself out, and this is the case for passionate Christians who do not spend one on one time with God.  This applies to the everyone from the pastors to members of the congregation.


To be honest, the idea of one on one time does not have to be the traditional sitting quietly. Every moment of your life is a chance to communicate with God. when you someone upsets you during the day you can talk to him, when you appriciate the beauty of nature you can thank him, when you are being tempted you can ask him for grace and he will always be there.
Here are some bible verses that talk about spending time with God.

1 Samuel 1:19   They rose early in the morning and worshiped before the LORD; then they went back to their house at  Ramah. 



Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world,  but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.









Sunday 27 April 2014

Deciding to take the guitar more seriously


I bought a guitar around a year ago and I've
 learnt to play it to a certain point. I would personally love to be it really good at it so i think i should take it more seriously. They always say practice makes perfect.. so i should put it to the test yeah? yeah ! anyways if i get really good i will upload a voice not of me playing it. I was searching how to get better, it seems learning lots of songs is a way and practicing hing techniques of moving my fingers around the guitar. To be honest when i first picked up the guitar it was the most awkward hing ever. my fingers were so stiff and i was like am i really gonna get good at this, but a year later with of and on practice i can play a tune or two.

Thursday 3 April 2014

Freind or Foe

Recently I have been wondering about a certain "friend" in my life, its been really strange you know. I feel like I have good reason to think that this person feels forced to be friends with me. okay lets review the signs?
1) Does not say hi by themselves
2) only speaks properly when other friends are around( the ones that he gets along with)
3) sees me obviously sitting by myself but chooses to sit behind me
 I don't like this type of situation, i am all up for True friendship... i don't like pretend friends, its such a waste of time. I've been thinking of just turning around one day and just saying " you don't have to force yourself to be a friend of mine, just cause we have friends in common". As for me I have no issues with the guy, and am called to love everybody. Therefore I keep treating him nicely, but its getting a bit tiring. On the other hand I guess others people behaviour should not influence my behaviour and alter my good intentions. But I am human, i really do notice it. ahh well... I  think one of these days I may end up saying something, LOL it would probably make things awkward for the friendship group. lol I honestly dislike causing friction! but its cool, its coming to the end of this semester. I have to concentrate on Exams  now.

Are we friends?
someone once said
if you ever have
to ask
this question you
know
the answer already.

Thursday 20 March 2014

Where are your Bus manners!!

Today was a very long day and i was looking foward to getting home,  taking a nice nap and having a cup of tea. however due to unforeseen events that was ruined, I am home now but the journey back was very much ANNOYING. If there was an award for most annoying bus passenger in the world this man would win it.
This is how a normal bus sanario would play out
you come in, you see its packed there are 1 or two seats left. the person who is sitting already sees your struggle has empathy for you and welcomes you to sit down. making enough ROOM for you.

My sanario
I walk into the bus is packed and yes only one seat, i seat next to this man thinking he was going to move his arms. But did he not, He deliberately made me feel uncomfortable by jabbing his elbows into my arm. pretending not to sense my discomfort. i hate contact with strangers so i tried to put my bag in the way. it didnt work. I was Outraged!! I ended up moving when some people got off but that man needs some better Bus manners. Geez

Thursday 13 March 2014

Life Changer

Life changing experience....
Okay so last week I went over to my aunts for a week, one evening i was on the bus 81 and as I was sat there something kept pushing me to stand up and talk about my faith. It was sooo nagging it was like "talk about Christ". I was like is this just me talking?.At the end of the day I got off the bus without saying anything. But as I got out of the bus i prayed and I was like "God if you really want me to do this, let it happen again". I may be loud but am not usually soo confident that I would stand up in a bus.
Anyway some days went past and i was on my way to church on a Sunday, i was on the bus and it happened again. I was like are you serious? And this time, with my nervous self I went in front of the bus and spoke to the people on it. I talked to them about my faith and i said "Some of you here may not believe in Christ, but if you are ever in a DARK place call unto him, he wants to help". I left it at that and went back to my seat.
I can hardly explain how i felt afterwards. I can't it on words.
Its been couple of days since i did that, i was speaking to my house mate about it and she said i had to share.
so whats the point of me posting this? well its to encourage people, it may seem crazy but do what God tells you to, no matter what people think. You don't know who you are reaching.

Friday 7 March 2014

The Fashion Segment

I have recently rejuvenated my love for fashion, I really really like it. well so it seems, therefore this is my attempt at a fashion Blog. it will exhibit my style and my tastes :D also reviews on big fashion trends.

The Race Issue

Sighs, recently I've been coming into contact with a lot of issues that concern race and perception. This Issue tends to tire me out, the most recent is the #itooamhavard movement. I am not American but I do know what affirmative action is. It's definitely not an excuse to look down on people who have obviously worked hard to get where they are. You would think in such an Institute held in high prestige by most people in the world would be less ignorant. Ignorance is a disease that robs people of the chances they deserve, it blinds people from seeing the  good qualities other human beings have. My                                                                                           conclusion about this issue - Be Myself.

Being myself means
- working hard because instilled in me is a good work ethic
-being optimistic and excellent in everything I do
-being well mannered and confident as I was brought up.
-speaking up when I see and injustice.
-Loving people enough to give them a chance.
At the end of the day everything stems from Me, My Mindset and My Insight. No outside influences will alter the way I perceive myself ever.

Link for #itooamhavard-http://itooamharvard.tumblr.com/

Tuesday 21 January 2014

Crazy Crush!

I and a friend went for a meal  after  an  exam today, it was a nice break from all the stress of studying and anxiety lol. We got talking and ended up on  topic of relationships, currently my friend is in a relationship and they are so perfect together, she found a really nice gentleman. Lol .. I say gentleman when they are really nice. We discussed our past crazy crushes which was funny and also observed how people rush into things when they are not ready. I have not been in a relationship yet and I don't want to because the me right now at this moment is definitely not ready lol. But one thing I've noticed about my previous crushes is how intense they were.I indirectly hinted this to my friend lol. When you crush on someone you are so blinded by the false image you have of them,  you can't even see the real person. That's what I found when  my crushes ended, it's not that my crush had changed but because I had cleared the rosy smog that blocked my view of who he really was I truly saw him for......wait for it who he really was!. What am I trying to say?  
From observations of myself I think people when they first like each other should take time to clear any rosy smog clouding their view of the person they admire. Of course not everyone is like me but i see this as a pointer to work on, you don't want any ugly surprises when you are in the middle of a relationship. That's why the statement "you've really changed", is sometimes invalid. Its not that they have changed, its beacuse you didn't take your time to really SEE .
 my conclusion - Honesty is Key , :D I love chats with friends they always get you to think.

And to be honest am also at an advantage because I believe that God will help me out the the time comes.

Sunday 19 January 2014

Being Humble..

I realised today that I have an Issue with pride, so today another drummer came to help out. To teach me the ropes, but it was the way it was done that annoyed me, also my quick conclusion thoughts fuelled my actions and probably left a bad first impression. sighs
 so I find that I am not playing the drums today but watching, I think I feel threatened sometimes because instruments in general are a male dominated area, so today when I went up to play the way I was first dismissed was unpleasant. it was like "Woman you just watch". the Bass player gave me that look, I was like seriously?? are you kidding me

i gave a really sarcastic answer to his question " are you playing today", I then said " well. obviously like I play every week". The drummer who was meant to help me improve was standing, so I didn't even look at him. I just stood up and walked away. . how rude of me

I didn't grasp the whole situation I just reacted, I should have been calmer and that's when I realised it was an issue with pride. The conga player had actually brought the drummer guy to help me improve not to put me down, I read the situation wrongly. And even if the way they talked to me was flippant I should have stuck to being the nice person I KNOW I am.
 At the end of the day I ended up nest to the drummer who was amazing by the way. I really learnt a lot from just watching him play.
This is where being Humble and Humility is important in life.
DON'T react, wait the situation out and be patient.

James 1:19 - "My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry."


Thursday 16 January 2014

Faithful in my Unfaithfulness

So to day was the day of yet another exam, i was really expecting the worst.Because I finished my revision this morning, I have to thank God. He must still have hope in me, I just feel like I don't do the things he likes. I wanna change, its one thing to talk and speak about him but to live a life pleasing to him is another story. I can do all things through Christ that Strengthens me. I will be aright :) I am going to be Positive!

He has shown me several times that he loves me, so what am I doing?

Wednesday 15 January 2014

Positivity is Key

Today  my house mate called me down to have a chat, she started to make advise me saying that  I was being too negative about my life in several aspects and my  negativity was affecting her. I didn't realise this until she pointed it out, and it must be quite bad if its to the extent of affecting her? wow! after she spoke I thought about it... and she was right. so I started to come up with ways to be more positive. MY SOLUTION: The only way to win against negative thoughts is to not tolerate them. So therefore when they come in my mind i must counteract them with positivity :D
MY POSITIVITY IS
philipians 4:8

One Down 4 To Go!

Ok so my first exam is done, finito, behind me! As usual I was nervous and fidgety. The exam room itself was daunting but once I finally found my seat, I took a deep breath and made myself comfortable. Traditionally  there's always someone's alarm that goes off during the exam.. and this exam was no different lol



The paper was okay but my fate will be decided when I get my results. What you sew is what you reap. :D I'll Defo work harder for my next exams. Promise! lol

Sunday 12 January 2014

This is Crazy!!

Okay so earlier I said that I would make this blog more about God and it would generate more traffic than ever, so because I trusted in him in this little thing and advanced he actually came and did it for me. ARE YOU KIDDING! I had in the space of 10 minutes more views than I have had in a whole week… that’s crazy. No wonder the bible says that if you are faithful in the little things you will be faithful in the larger ones. Luke16:10
Lol so this means if I God to use me  change the world I have to start being faithful first in the small things in my life, like prayer and Sunday school e.tc. :D time to work on myself! Am excited!

And God Spoke...

This early morning I was praying and God said to me to make this blog more about him, he promised that I would generate more traffic than ever in my life and I trust that. It made sense, if I truly want to write a blog that changes lives and gives hope to people I should make it based on the one thing that has done that for me. Read my Blog with an open mind, this blog will be about my experiences with God. I am Christian, I believe in Christ and the Bible. I don’t try to twist the bible to the left or to the right; I take it as it is and pray about it and wait on God to speak to me. People may ask, how does he speak to you? There are so many avenues he may use, he can leave a deep impression in your heart, therefore whatever he is speaking to you about stays on your mind and you can’t shake it off. Or he may use others to speak to you, people you did not even expect.
God bless you all. :D I am happy because for one of the first time in a long time I obeyed Gods voice immediately.
P.S Visit this blog with an open mind. I know people have different opinions but be respectful.

Not All information is Good information!

Not all information is good information. Yesterday I stumbled across a website that talked about lots and lots of the evil that was going on in this world. I didn't read a lot of it but I read enough for it to disturb my mind, the thing with my mind is that its quite sensitive. I learn and take in information by reading, its not that I'm some kind of genius that remembers everything that she reads but certain parts jump out at me and replay in my mind. So i read this and i tell you guys that most of the stuff i read kept replaying in my mind and i could not sleep. Because the information i read was negative it put me in an anxious/nervous state. So what did i do next??
I prayed.. lol i prayed for peace of mind. Seriously though this is not that first time this has happened, its like i don't learn my lesson but this time i think God allowed me to be a bit more disturbed for longer to teach me a lesson. I had to call my pastor and be like i read this that and this PLEASE, pray for peace of mind for me.

sighs funnily enough total peace of mind came upon me this afternoon. I know people may say negative things like "you have a weak mind, that's why it affected you the way it did". But that's not the point. I learnt from that and previous experiences that not all information is good for you at all.Some you should just stay away from! especially if you are susceptible. This entry is for my future reference in case I EVER feel like reading something stupid again, which will be NEVER!

I end with this

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

Saturday 11 January 2014

Excel in the face of Adversity

Recently I saw something that made me very sad and I don't think that will change, i think every time i encounter it i will react the same way. taken aback..reclusive...and lonely.  I should know  and i have heard that some people in the world are like that and its their choice, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. So i write to let it out! It so sad when you like people so much but they end up hurting you because of prejudgements and unfair sweeping conclusions about you that have no ground . Especially when its something you can't control, some thing they have no right to look down on you because of .... In deep thought i came to this conclusion.

People's opinions should not and will not in the future concern me, I will not change who I am because of people who are inconsiderate. My attitude will not change, no matter who you are or where you are from I will give you a fair chance. Those who have been hurt should not hurt others.
Confident Lifestyle! Their opinion of me does not change the truth of who i really am inside, when let them change my attitude is when I have been defeated.


Fight Against Sugar!

Sugar..ahhh sugar the white gold dust, companies make billions all around the world because of people like me. Sad very sad because these refined sugars are not good for me!! argh okay  its that time again I will once again try to curb my sugar cravings flat out for 2 weeks. That means-no cake
- no biscuits
- no white flour
- No Refined sugar.
This is easier said than done especially when you have been on the stuff for so long. I feel really tired and have a lack of energy and I Know that this is definitely one of the reasons!
I also have my exams in 2 days. I
am nervous not finished covering all the handouts. Better get to work !

Thursday 9 January 2014

Comparison is the thief of Joy

I decided to start doing pilates some time ago, so i you tubed some videos and found a really good instructor called Cassie Ho. She's so encouraging!! i tried one of videos today and she said something really hit home " Comparison is the thief of joy". This is so true I've found when i compare myself to others it tends to be the saddest of times. You shouldn't compare and every one should go at their own pace, God made us unique and for a certain purpose and  i shouldn't forget that
.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GcprcpeOdG0 - Thats a link to her pilates video if you are intrested!

Wednesday 8 January 2014

Craving for Black Bean noodles aka



Recently some friends took me to a Korean Restaurant ( my friends are not Korean) because we wanted to try something new. The menu was really confusing because i didn't understand it but the waitress was helpful and i randomly pointed at a picture that said Jajaangmun... hopefully that's the right spelling. It ended up being Black bean noodles. O MY GOSH that stuff is the bomb. i ate this i think a week ago and since then I've been having a craving for it.. but its an expensive craving £8.00 is ALOT, i wish they did student discount. Meh, the point is i think i have to learn to make this dish myself. i will post a picture of my sucess or failure :D

Tuesday 7 January 2014

Perseverance

I'm on my way back from work, contemplating if i should head straight to the library or Sleep. On my way to work at 5.30am I saw people in there.. like studying, I was not surprised but it was impressive to see. Now on my journey back the same Asian guy I saw earlier studying by the window !! that's what i call perseverance,  and I need some of that in my life. In recent post talked about how  stressed i am because  of upcoming  exams, well to be honest it's completely my fault. when I had the chance and time to study i didn't. There were some issues going on at the time but i don't think it was an excuse. I let myself be engulfed by laziness and sloth when i could have easily prayed and asked for help. Sighs.. If I let you know the many times i have done this, My late revision history you would be shocked. But at every time God has been merciful and allowed me to do well, like really well. I am currently in my first year of university and these are my first set of exams. As you read my posts you will find out that i am far from perfect and there's many things about me that you would think... why? But I have no issue God is strong in my weakness and as long as I have the faith that he is there I know that in time I will Change. Ack my eyes are soo heavy!!

Monday 6 January 2014

Work

My shift starts at 5.30am this morning, i seriously need to get to sleep. How do i feel about work?? well its really early but I get away with ALOT. like really I am not bragging but my employers are seriously nice people also i also think that God is covering for me ALOT. I mean some days I just don't show up either because i woke up late or just being really irresponsible. I should be soo fired, but I can't lie I think I love this Job. There's a real love for it in my heart, like i genuinely want to do a good job for them and not be lazy but it probably seems to them that i am taking them from granted. I've decided that from now I will definitely try to make it on the days I am on.....

Awake At This Time (Exams)

I have a lot on my mind this early morning, finishing my morning prayer is one of them, the other is my upcoming exams. I mean come on why do i always leave it late, its a new year 2014 wow! But with this year better come actual Change. I don't know why exactly I have decided to write a blog but i really feel its Therapeutic in some way. LOL blogs are a cheap therapy session.On a serious note i hope people will read and grow from my experiences some how. I plan to be very honest and also include funny stories from the Past :D probably once a month hehe.